Jules

To think for a second, to think I had something I thought my life was so good He told me things I cherished, secretly But I never thought that he would... He said I was the only one, And you know it makes sense now You were never mine, I never cared You might have said it somehow It would've saved me from this heartbreak I never knew what it felt like till now Loneliness, hurt, betrayal, tears... Nothing but shaking and tears Never wanting it to end, makes it end Faster than we have years Oh bittersweet heaven remove me now So friendless and scared and alone Hurt by two, who think they are the victim I could tell in their voice, their tone Why not? I think to myself Let them think that I am alright Because they don't care about it anyways Why did I have to fall again last night? Talking bout stars, about life, and the world I could've let myself into his arms I almost did, how I wanted to fall His kindness, his honesty, his charms Omg I can't believe that I was so dumb That for a second I thought I was fine I thought that I could come home one day And not be surrounded by tears and rhyme But this is worse than anything I have ever felt before Why did I think that I stood a chance Against one with such beauty galore Why do I care, it was I who broke away I broke his heart I am told If I did, is it rebound? Or is that what I am? Nothing but hay against gold Sobbing, hair pulling, locked door, locked heart You shouldn't have opened it up, stupid girl The wall was built for a reason, dear Jules And now that truth will unfurl Wicked girl, ugly girl, lost and alone Give up, give it up, it's so clear He doesn't want you, he doesn't care But he whispers so softly in my ear 'I love you' he said, and now the tears flow Again like they've never before I'd love to stop crying but I feel so betrayed It's obvious he cares for her more What do I do, what can I say? I could run but what would that do? Jules, you're so stupid, I am so dumb It's fake, love is fake, it isn't true You fell once again into arms so strong I fell once again, so strangely Life hates me, time hates me, ugh I fell hard I should've known that he wouldn't catch me