Innocence Denied

Look at me. My God,I am so wasted Coming down off last nights drug filled high It seemed so right when all the dreams I tasted Helped me all my problems to deny The last thing I remember I was dancing Where are all my things, my purse, my shoes Where is the guy that said he'd look out for me Oh my god, what else did I lose. I'm so scared, I don't know what happened Everything he told me was a lie Then he robbed me of my precious treasure My life is over, I just want to die I know that I can never face my parents How can I tell them what I've done Why would they even want me for their daughter I hurt so bad and have nowhere to run I can't face their looks of disappointment Life as it was will never be the same I've lost everything I've ever stood for I will never overcome the shame I'm sorry mom and dad, I have betrayed you Your trust in me I know I have destroyed The emptiness inside me is consuming Where my virtue lived there's now a void I climb upon the bridges concrete railing And gaze down at the water far below The ripples whisper promises of solace I do not want to leave, but I must go My eyes are filled with tears that blur my vision Attesting to the pain I feel inside It's just my soul that now will be affected For last night is when my body died I step off and wait for the sensation When my body sinks beneath the wake Please wash away the soil of indiscretion Free me from the shame of my mistake