Im Sorry Kim

Let me explain the main reason i went insane Hear me out for the things that im sayin I know i get things in my head and i say them I say that im playin with all the jokes i be layin And i know sometimes i say the wrong things that i say But just know i think of you everyday Every minute every second of the way And i pray that i may say someday "i do" The things that ill do for you Im missin you I think back at all the moments that i was huggin and kissin you My life is nothing without being with you All the hard times i went thru Huggin and holdin me and sayin I Love You The tears that i cried when i was in your arms Held my hands and palms and kept me calm I want someday to be your title mom All the pain and mistakes inside of me like a bomb So my heart is a real gentle stillness Its like i have a severe mental illness Its not his or her business I want to know "What are we what is this"? Im confused what today is Valentines,Halloween or Christmas? Just know im sorry for hanging up when you call I get worried thats all I just want to know wherever you are; house,friends or off to the mall And i know that i call and start things and blow everything off Like a giant high tempered jerk ball And i know that i hurt you makin you fall Im sorry for all the times i go crazy insane insane crazy I think of you everyday and when it happens i go sane not crazy This poem is just for you baby Kim my wife,my baby,my only love,and years to come grow old together and grow lazy And darkness clouds in and our eyes go hazy Holding hands together while the world holds still for our lives it spins one last time......This is my rhyme... Love Constantine to Kim J 04.05.06-Heaven