Illusion

this cant be the end moving on was an illusion moving on was my pretend how i did not want to move on without you how i did not want us to end pretending to be happy pretending i don't feel was my own illusion was my only way to deal goodbye is such an ugly word especially when you don't mean it goodbye is such a final word that shatters every true feelings how i desperately wanted to hold you to never let you go how i desperately wanted time to end so this moment wouldn't go having you come to me so needy making me want to crave your touch having you come to me so longing making me want to bathe in your love is all everything i cant have because of my illusion of moving on is everything i denied myself because of all the hurt i caused my heart please i beg of you leave me in the dark please, oh please, remove yourself from my heart......