If Tomorrow Is Truely News

I can’t do Anything without you There’s nothing I can do without you I know you think I’m me But I’ve been pretending to be Opened the door Before I knew you were leaving My first foster mother and adopted brother It’s a world of harsh reality Left it to my feet to discover “Trust no one” Especially if snakes don’t speak “You don’t even utter” No cold cuts, no bread, only peanut butter Maybe a taste of honey on days we couldn’t play Child hood was just not sunny Hated church The pastor and anything biblical that lurked Hated photos No cheese, no smile, not even a smirk Held my pillow to my face and refused to breathe At the time life could do nothing but hurt Never fell in love Not a passionate flirt Family visits and various social workers “Please I’m not going to hurt you” Never mind the damage has been done Never could revamp the fun Grew grim, my soul got bleached in the sun Nine years old and I just want to see mom A friend , a single compassionate face Bitterly my beloved tears taste Not born of a supreme race Days I’d go without toothpaste The struggles I’ve over come The scars you can’t see The image you love I can no longer be I worthless, I get it I’m poor and things are getting no better But I haven’t misspelled a word in this letter Worth nothing more than soiled rags But I did it, I made it to 22 Without hustling, drugs, or getting tagged My tears in your basket, that’s all I had No property value “smoke marijuana” get out of here Cant let these detectives and there ideal logy foul you She’s a pretty girl but I can’t give her the world Maybe a cold drink and a romance that won’t sink Hold on to that, I’d miss you if I blinked I changed my life at twelve Put yesterday on the shelf And held on to myself I have no identity I’m made up of what I learned from others No mother, no father I shouldn’t have made it any further I can’t do Anything without you There’s nothing I can do without you