I'D Rather

I'd rather end this with anger, If I don't I'll come back to you like a beggar. I'd rather end with hatred towards you, Because deep down I know I still love you. I'd rather end this detesting you in every way, If I didn't I would be on my knees asking you to stay. I'd rather see you as my eternal enemy, If I didn't I would continue to love you endlessly. I'd rather wish you the worst than the best, If I didn't I know I wouldn't pass this test. I'd rather destroy your painful memory today, If I don't it will destroy me day by day.