I Wish I Was Strong

Everybody says I m strong. but is it really so? I still remember the day when my grandma was taking her last breath i saw everbody crying around me i held my tears just to wish that she will b fine but someone said something that left me morone. she said u dont hv feelings n u have a heart of stone! Nobody knew how much i cried silently how much i loved her deeply and countless sleepless nights Everybody says one thing. U r so strong, coz u never cry! And then came the time when my brother had to go far away from me to make his carrier. this was like a dream which was scarier. i wanted to tell him i cant let u go coz i love u the most. which u'll never know. whenever i eat maggi, i remeber those times when he would force me into kitchen in the middle of night to make maggi n get something to eat n company him with a movie which was so sweet. whenever i drive activa i feel tears rolling down and my heart pounding to feel the empty seat behind and silence all around. what happened is question asked by friends and i answer the same. it is coz of discomfort caused by lens! I feel so lonely even in group of friends. but i always try to keep a smile on my face which has now become a trend. coz nobody likes sad faces everybody is busy in their own races. i dont want sympathy i dont wanna complain. i just want someone to hold my hand and look into my eyes whenever m sad to smile and say cheer up stupid i know you are lying dont show me ur fake smile coz i know, from inside u r crying!