I Love You Enough

I won a battle I came out on top Your be happy to hear this Maybe even jealous I tried to write the perfect poem I couldn't They never quite did you justice So I burned all of them They didn't make me shiver The perfect poem for you should be read as a whisper Hummed as a song As I won our battle I came out on top I won our battle And your gone In the woods by our home In May bluebells carpet the ground Violet, blue, pink Astounding This is where we lay Blowing wishes up through the trees As we said how much we loved each other After a long life Children Grandchildren We'd stroll along the beach holding hands Our dog would still be alive We'd have enough money to make him live forever He'd bark at our heels Not throwing his stick quite fast enough His poor little docked tail wagging Playing with the waves At Christmas our house filled with our family Generations of our life Exceedingly happy We'd do route 66 Take years if we wanted Kiss all the time As we're still in love, not just loving Buy a Jacuzzi Skinny dip at 80 Too early, so young Life destroyed you This is what our love had amounted to The perfect poem still hasn't surfaced Even though I live through the solace There is no beautiful words for it It doesn't rhyme It is no sonnet It's simply this That night we stared at the stars I told you I loved you enough I'd be happy for you to go first you said i can go forward you would stay not wanting me to feel life's decay I said your going first, this battle was mine til the last I'd be left with life's uncertainties The damp in my heart would last My remaining days I would suffer impeccable sadness Loss being relentless I love you enough To stand the destitute days Cold nights anxiety makes Emptiness of loneliness I love you enough for you to never feel this I love you enough for you to die first This is what my love amounted to I love you enough to be the last I love you enough