I Hoped

I hoped I really really hoped By now that you'd pick up the phone Or show up at my door But there's someone you want a little bit more Days and nights go by Staying strong is hard but I try Reminders pop up in every day life But still I keep busy and strong, I try So many moments I've never had I'll never get to experience with dad Basic anatomy connected us at first You ignored all that and rolled me in the dirt Downhill I fell and fell and fell You made me cry many times and I yelled Your heads made of brick My hearts made of sticks Your abuse burned my love down You hallowed the insides of this chick Been ten years now, I've rolled back up the hill Been a struggle, but life now is pretty chill I wont pretend that I don't think of you Miss having someone there because I do Honestly I never did feel that you cared That bottle always came first and it was more than I could bare Being me is something I learned to do Something that wouldn't have happened if I stuck with you.