I Have To Fight To Win

For three years I have been afflicted Mentally and physically I have been whipped My body constantly wanted to give up and quit I just said no more that is it I felt so lonely and cold inside From my friends and family I hide Right now I’m so afraid to cry I’m so confused about things so I question why With all this anger and hostility Why am I feeling so guilty? I’m crying out for help but nobody hears me Who is this enemy? I keep rebuking with all my might I’m so tired of this endless fight Since I was diagnosed with kidney failure I’m always tired and weak so fragile This is something I thought I can handle Right now my life feels dismantled Last night an angel appeared before me crying He hugged me and said Jesus loves you so keep fighting So I will fight for tomorrow and for another day I will let Jesus Christ guide me and lead my way I cannot and will not fight this battle alone To God I call on and I say shalom! Psalms 116:4 Then I called on the name of the Lord: "O Lord, save me!"