I Dont Know

Desperately trying to discard all of who I was but, I have no clue who I am, my thoughts are clashing, memories replay but I cant tell how to perceive them, what am I supposed to do, did I do what was best- no. I don't know. If I did what was right, why am I here crying, questioning fruitlessly, the plant seems to be poisoned, each branch withers away but forever remains till taken. Tears drop as thoughts morph into code- what do I do?