I Dont Care

I no longer care what you think No…. I won’t be bound by your perceptions Your box of pain Your misconceptions That fall like rain On my parade I don’t care What you think of the state Of my mind Or my love life Or my future My past My dreams My faith My desire I don’t care I DON’T Care I don’t! I won’t be confined I won’t be defined I won’t be subjected to Experiments and tests Prodded here and here Pressing fingers Feeling Groping In a blaze of scrutinizing lights On a cold slab of steel Wondering what you'll find As you dig into me Surgical scrubs To catch the splatter of blood Of my insecurities NO... I don't care What you find What you see This is me I don’t care I won’t live up to your standards Been there Done that All my life Coloring in the lines When all I want is to splash vibrant emotions On the canvas of my life Restricted Rules Expectations Do the right thing Say the right thing Act the right way Think the right thoughts I don’t care anymore My days are numbered I feel the tinge of death On my lips His hands reaching for me Always there In the back of my mind There…. I don’t care I want to live To breathe To laugh To love To speak To dream Dreams that no one will invade and steal No one will take them away from me NO!!! I will speak! I will say what is on my mind And heart And not care About what you think Or if you walk away Because you are weak I don't care After all… This is MY life MINE To win or lose To live or die To laugh or cry To give up or try My life MINE I don’t care….. I DON’T CARE For anyone FOR ANYONE But that little girl That middle aged woman That romantic dreamer The idealist The believer The lover The dreamer That carefree woman Who lives and breathes And moves Inside of me! Eileen Manassian Ghali