I Cry

Are you crying again? No Then why are your eyes red again? I don’t know I cry to stay awake and I cry myself to sleep It seems whenever I’m not crying I’m screaming And when I’m not screaming I’m lying Lying to my mom and lying to myself Lying to my friends It’s ok I say. I don’t mind you keep me awake all night with your problems It's not like I have enough of my own anyway. So when I’m not lying I’m sleeping And when I’m sleeping I’m still lying But it’s just a different kind--now I’m telling you the truth (I swear) And I don’t mind you cloud my head with those thoughts And I don’t mind cloudy days but why do they always gotta rain? I don’t mind when I feel empty I don’t mind when I feel sad When I’m angry I go running When I’m not running I’m angry I smile when I’m sad to cover up the blues I smile to be happy it only makes me sad I’m lying for your benefit cuz it’s never been for me I lie to make me happy it only makes me sad I wanted to be good but I guess I must be bad I cry to make me empty, it only makes me cruel I’d die to make me free But then I’d just be a fool Well at least I’m not a fool for you.