Heart To Heart

When I sat down to write this poem, I didn't know what to say. Because you and I were never close, it just didn't work that way. When I was growing up, I often wondered why you weren't there. You never came that Christmas, I didn't think that was fair. Regardless, I was still so happy when dad said we were going to see you. I greeted you with open arms, my brother and sister did too. However I learned very quickly that parenting wasn't your fort ay. I guess it's not for everyone, I've forgiven you by the way. I just didn't understand then, what I understand right now. I believe you wanted to mother us, you just really didn't know how. And now that I'm a mother, with kids of my own; I realize how hard it is, especially when your alone. One of the last things you said to me, before God took you away; was, 'I want to be there to dance on Mahalia's wedding day!' I told you that you would be there, no matter what, I swear! And the look that I saw in your eyes, let me know you really care. I realize now that your my mom, the one that gave me life; Losing you felt like I got stabbed in the heart with a knife. I think about you often, sometimes i even feel you near. And when I sing my kids the ice-cream song, its your voice I hear. I know that your in Heaven, with Aunt Glore and Granny, but today we are all together again, one big happy family. So heres my tribute to you, every word is from my heart. I love you and I miss you..... There, I said my part!