Going Apart

living my life as much as i can live.. living my day till the start of another.... not spoiling my today for the start of tomorrow... but still not feeling like living it..... why....why..and why........ creating the dreams every day... full filling my choises every day......... from climex of the sunlight to the happyendings in the peacefull night........... stealing... buying.... gaining.... spending.... every single dot of light....... to feel it to spread it....in a better form of life........ still not fealing complete...not fealing like at max. of my life not fealing like i felt it in other days..... not fealing like i felt it like other nights..... there is every thing except my friends.... every luxry except the warmth of my dad.... every food except the food cooked by mom......... every one except my noughty kin... every joy and every sucess... i miss them in my each happyness.... growing up now getting far...having job taking me apart.... making new friends...one day a family...still... cant forget the smell of that freashly grass..............