Found and Lost

I needed someone to talk to and found only myself I had a moment of thought too but I kept it to myself I wanted that uplifting praise and found it in myself I gave everything in many ways but left nothing for myself. Am I selfish for being selfless Am I heartless for being a hard mess This is not easy This is not fun This was supposed to last This was supposed to be the one The clock is not on my side The hands are ticking with pride The explosion is at its peak The damage is showing as I speak I gave everything in many ways and lost more than just myself I wanted that uplifting praise and with it I ruined myself I had a moment of thought too but I didn't keep it to myself I needed someone to talk to and I couldn't even hear myself.