Forsaken

Coming home for a event intended for cheer, on my way there I tremble with fear. Because I'm scared and sad, remembering the life we once had. It's my only wish that we could be together, happy and in love, but for now that seems like never. I notice the pictures that were of us are no longer on the wall, a breaking point signaling that our marriage has taken a serious fall. Feeling like I can never do anything right or judged under the spotlight, any attempt to communicate with you brings frustration and spite. Living my life in the past thinking I knew what I was doing, failing to acknowledge your love, selfish instead of wooing. All is forsaken between us or so it would seem, maybe it is and maybe is isn't, how on earth can I be redeemed. When I say I love you, take it as you will, I've never meant it more even as time stands still.