Forgotten Past

Allow me to vanish into thin air After all it was not your fault I fell so much in love with you I was so naïve To have realised your love for me was not real Is it my fault I loved you so much and treated you like a king? You appeared like an angel Harmless, faithful and full of grace But deep down you knew you were a monster Sent from the dark world To break my heart and leave me in tatters That night you brought down my pants And played with my beads I did not think for a second To consult the rules that held me together For the past twenty-four years In spite of this you said I was stupid To have loved you the way I did And that you were playing games with me But I thought you loved me And swore you will die for me I thought we were bound together In those moments of ecstasy I cry today for time lost I cry today for the false hope I cry today for the for losing my virginity Why do I still love you in spite of everything? I want to hate you with all my strength But the more I try; the more I love you Tears will not stop rolling down my cheeks Every time your thoughts crosses my mind You took advantage of me Played on my innocence And treated my love with discontent Deep down, you know what I say is true Now love is knocking at my door But I am afraid to let it in Afraid I will be hurt again My heart is bleeding I live everyday with unanswered questions on my mind I want to give love a chance to feel me once more But how do I do that When my heart has been locked up in cells of yesterday I cannot continue like this It’s time to open myself up to happiness Pick you from my dreams And dream what I want to dream Go where I want to go Be what I want to be Because I only have one life And a chance to do all the things I want to do Now is time to allow happiness to make me sweet Allow someone else to make me smile For it takes smiles to make a dark day seem bright I now let go my past failures and heartaches You are forgotten my love For the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past.