For Courtney

Courtney Oh, I see the solace now you seek; The warmth of such hallowed spaces; The valley of commerce upon which you Staked no claim – the sudden quick miss-aim – Toward the vaulted value of the day – in all I seek this Sway within you. My heart seems out of pace near you… My words obliterate their best intentions; I say this much: I am followed by that shadow Too – it grips my sterling soul, sometimes – Its hectic gait sinks and rises all at once; it storms Around my brain – yet –at times it seems a Calming beast asleep near the fire – I hear its measured Breathing low, its idle power roils at my feet; I am its master-for now, a moment, a second; for this truce shall come undone, without the help of anyone, It will come about…diamond clear, I say.