Flashback To Present

The continuous memories scattered inside my mind All the laughter and loving scenes are left behind Leaving a life of bad possibilities where I came from Never getting a chance to show how I overcome Although it was bad I left something more important A mother’s smile a little brother and my childhood The moments that made me hide and stay quiet Never understood but always wished I could I wished and watched my life past before my eyes Hearing lonely nights of my father’s cries All the women who watched and waited For the chance their love’ll be overrated The beating of your heart crashing your chest Hope dad knows how much I tried All the women in and out and never get the best He tried to hide the feeling with lies Flashback to the present to resist pain and a missed checklist A little girl who was 4 and now 14 Looking at the past to see what it means and what she missed I’m sorry for not helping when I could you say it’s not my fault but it should The countless things that way tons and ounces Becomes the burned wall that my life announces My life in the present is a closed book of rejection and regret I Work harder in the present than in the past, without a chance to wipe off the sweat, Without a chance to make the good memories last All I’m told is to let it go and let the past be the past But how am I supposed to forget so soon and so fast? As much as I try I continue to flashback to those moments Knowing that even if I do forget, my life won’t have enjoyment I continue to flashback and come back to the present There will be no change without consent