First Love

You say, you say But what do you do? It’s always wanting more with you How many hours wasted waiting? Desperately needing...anticipating Drawn out desperate un-returned calls Echoes of reason, only faint footfalls Still I wait and long for you Because I love…..I’m hopelessly true I picture you elsewhere, not alone Blatantly ignoring the ringing phone You’ll be here tomorrow, dripping sincerity While I cry silently, developing clarity I know this game…all too well You’ll have another story to tell And I will listen…take it all in For I can’t bear to lose you, or let her win So I pretend, accept, and forgive If only to gain one more day to live Because I love, I give you my heart Even though you have been careless from the start Intentional victim, I pity myself While you court her with practiced stealth My first love…you will always be Impossibly perfect, if only to me So I forgive you and delay the inevitable My devotion to you is truly incredible Now, looking back…I see you at last For all that you lacked and all that you asked How carelessly you held my heart in your hands But I’ve taken it back, less a few strands Thank you for the lessons; for teaching me That love does not come easily For all of your injuries and slights have been measured And in the end, despite the pain…within my own heart, I’ve found abundant treasure