Feelings

Happy. Happy... happy? The definition of happy is as follows 'feeling or showing pleasure of contentment' Happy is a mask. Happy is a mask to hide sadness. We all use this mask. Were all sad at times. And we use this mask to hide. I am sad... sad. sad... sad? The definition of sad is as follows 'felling or showing of sorrow' I don't show emotions much. I find that if people know how i feel, it will impact on them. i cant be sad if I'm sad my mom will blame herself so I'm happy. happy so that my mom is happy too. but that makes me angry. angry i cant show emotion angry that.... angry. angry... angry? The definition of angry is as follows 'having a strong feeling of or showing annoyance, displeasure, or hostility' That's me. I'm angry. I'm angry at the fact i cant be sad unless i want my mom to be sad. so i mask it with happy but that make me.. Angry. but that's another problem. i cant be angry. or my mom will think its her fault. I must mask this anger with happiness. I must be happy. Happy. Happy... Happy? My definition of happy is as follows 'The only emotion in which I'm aloud to feel without being questioned' I will be happy so know one will know that I'm sad for being mad because forced to be...... Happy.