Fear of Falling

Sometimes when I look down from a high building that is so far up I get scared. Oh please oh please don't let me fall because this can't be the end. The feeling I feel when I am riding down a hill my heart is racing and I just can't stay still. I thought this was just a fear of mines, heights I just don't like. But if you saw me like I saw myself I felt my heart completely drop. I better hold on for dear life because it feels like i'm losing control, I have never been this afraid in my life maybe it's because I don't go far from where I am supposed to go. This is all new for me and I feel like it's my destiny to one day conquer this. But now, just for now I will stay as close as I can to the ground. I want to feel it touch my feet and I want to hear the sand moving. I would never want to be high enough so that I couldn't escape. It's a feeling on loneliness you just want it stop. No one can prevent that feeling of shock. I closed my eyes and braced myself for a huge storm as I fought the current in a battle that I didn't win. This is how it is in the world of feeling scared, there are all kinds of fears and we just have to live with it.