Fear

By Laura April 20, 2016 All these echoes floating in my mind Constantly reminding me of much better times I'm so afraid that I'm slowly going blind How long to the place where words never rhyme? How long until my time finally runs out? Relief is scaring me in the face of decline Sometimes I hate the fact that now I'm standing out I'm scared of the day these hateful stares cross the line My ego is too big for me to see how good it could be The depth of every kiss and everything I'll miss The sun is shining now but I'm drowning in these memories They don't belong to me. I never felt a shred of bliss Through blood shot eyes I practice perfect allibis Singing lullibies that exorcise the former me and dated lies It's crippling; the way the sea keeps rolling over me But if I hold my breath just long enough; I may just find a reason why