Fake Smiles and Lies

I have tried, For months I have tried, to let go of your haunting memory. I can’t. Behind every fake smile I give, I blindly hope I give an aura, of being happy. I am not. I fall asleep at night, only to find you haunting my dreams. The life I wanted to have, the love I needed, it’s all slipping so far away. I heard about you and her. I was engulfed with sadness. I was supposed to be me, not her. There is no one to blame, no one to accept this burden. I bury it deep inside, hidden behind, fake smiles, and lies.