F L Y

(First Love Yourself) This man loved me for me With all of my idiosyncrasies Including the lunacy Regardless of how I loved he He was all about me Not the beauty on the outside Or the way I made HIM feel He loved me for me Just ME Even my UGLY Even my BEAST No matter how I screamed or kicked or abused him He was there With all of him What did I do with his undying love and devotion? I threw it back at him in disgust How could ALL of HIM leave ME feeling like this? Unfulfilled, unhappy and unloving to him Yet he stayed faithful and dedicated to me I BLAMED him for loving me I hated him for knowing the ugly in me I HATED him for KNOWING and STILL loving me I discounted his love as insanity How could any self-respecting man tolerate all that I give to him? So I **** on him Crippling his spirit And breaking his heart As he screamed in pain I looked at him Agony on his face I laughed at him I called him weak Said his love wasn't enough for me Only now I see It was me Who didn't love me