Every Once In Awhile

every once in awhile, i wonder how you're doing every once in awhile, the thought goes right through me every now and then, i have a fond memory every now and then, i remember you were in fact the enemy every once in awhile i think about the birth of our child every once in awhile it stings,but it's oh-so mild every once in awhile i remember the first time we made love every once in awhile i recall praying to the stars above when you put me down,insulted me,always brought me to tears when you shook me,choked me,slapped me,poked me for 3 whole years every once in awhile i remember how it was to be so timid every now and then i think my god he really did it every once in awhile, i miss you,yes this is true but only every now and then you see,you cannot make me blue every once in awhile i have good memories and want to cry but then i remember how the majority of our time was and me just wanting to die every once in awhile i wonder what would have happened if we'd stayed i make myself keep on working ive to i got to get paid every now and then i see a handsome,sweet,moral guy that i left in my past,and flew right by,and then i wonder why but if im honest with myself,which is sometimes hard to do you and i were oil and water,and we both knew it true you were agressive,i was submissive,that is a lethal combonation i was a girl,you were a man,who knew what to say,i was taken so yes.every once in while i miss you. id be lying if i said it wasnt so. but the truth of the matter,i had to do.. i had to make you go sometimes i think of you with positive memories,but thats mostly for our child now and then i forget all the misery but thats only every once in awhile