Escape From Reality

long ago when i was younger i would often find myself drifting dreaming floating away in a boat out on the ocean away from step fathers that made me grow up far too soon away from mothers that blamed me for everything bad that happened in her life away from "friends" who used me for their stupid jokes away from hurt away from tears away from pain away from fears why? i still couldnt answer it i couldnt find the answer id been searching since i was seven but when i would sleep when i would drift when i would float in a boat on the ocean i would be happy truely happy...even for a moment that i was escaping the reality that i'd been stuck with for as long as i could remember i was safe.