Dreading the Moment

dreading the moment when i have to force myself to realize that the family i have care about money and nothing about others dreading the moment when they realize that i was being truthful the entire time and all they think is that i am lying to them they dont think what they do effects others all they do is what they want say what they want and believe all the lies dreading the moment when my love and i leave this mess for a good while and let them think that something happened to me and let them believe it but when i come back fully changed and i remember nothing about them and they dont understand why i am saying the things i do but sooner or later they will regret and feel so guilty about what they did to me and they will try to come up to me and apologize for what they have done and its too late im not dreading the moment when i get to feel the full satisfaction of knowing that they realize that they were in the wrong to keep the truth from me and lie to me the entire time but when they see all that they have done to me did not effect me or the man i fell in love with and see him playing with our children they will begin to regret everything they have done and try to make it seem like nothing ever happened between us but little do they know when they so come up they will be arrested and sued for violation of a no contact order and a restraining order between me, my husbend; my kids and that messed up thinking family