Distraught

I'm so lonely and depressed, So many feeling I keep repressed. Like being jealous, angry, or sad, Why can't I just feel glad? There are days I feel almost dead, And crazy things go through my head. Some days I feel so completely lost, And by my friends I've been crossed. This is my everyday life, And also being a housewife. I'm trying to keep it together, I'm not a very good actor. I want to feel so much better, But I feel like I've been stabbed with a dagger. I'm wishing for inner peace, But my anxiety continues to increase. I am trying to write everything down, Like the fact I wear the crazy crown. I want to be loved and touched, Maybe even clutched. Does anybody really love me? Not really because I'm so needy. Every day I wake up distraught, Over a dream or a thought. Will this insanity ever end? Or is this all pretend?