Disease of the Heart

Stranger by day, best friend by night, Overwhelmed by conversation, loss of breath by your sight, You slipped through my barricade smoother than any criminal, We kept everything under wrap all flirtations were subliminal, The love we had was dangerous, but never ceased to expand, No matter what the risk, no matter what the cost at hand, I should have taken the time to build my wall a little higher, I was unequipped with the tools that this job required, Sweet medicine to my heart, yet so poisonous to my life, Making me lose my sense of self, disobeying my duties as a wife, He slowly became my weakness while he doubled as my crutch, I tried to drop him, find a replacement, but he was nonesuch, Oh how the time would go by amongst this spiritual high, You were my refuge, I could breathe and kiss my problems goodbye, So unique, a gem of excellence, no one could compare, Unaware how far we'd gone into this vast love affair, So we paused; unsure of how to deal with it all, we broke, My world collapsing down, I looked to you, and you choked, Running around in the dark with no solution, I'm blinded, Making excuses for my actions, but there's no morals behind it, And now look at the place that we have ended, A place where our thoughts and emotions become suspended, Replacing love for like and leaving feelings at the door, Forgetting every single detail our relationship once stood for, Chemically composed we became physically exposed, Intertwined in a way that neither one of us had ever chose, Purely overrated, I was solely obligated, To put myself in check, believe these feelings were outdated, The painful truth is within my heart will forever be engraved, And to your spell I know I will forever be enslaved, “ I've conditioned my heart to be yours forever”, Thus the beautiful end to a lifelong love letter…..