Diary Entry

Daddy was… I don’t even remember but he wasn’t there I don’t even remember why you were so angry I got back home that night and my dog was lying in front of the garage AT NIGHT in front of the garage! I dial the keypad to get in the house but the door was locked and you took the key from its place so I couldn’t get in I rang the doorbell Knocked on the door Rang the doorbell Knocked on the door But I didn’t make a scene I carried my dog to the door on the fence, climbed over the fence, let my dog in and looked through the sliding glass door You were asleep I’m very happy for everybody that the sliding glass door wasn’t locked I get inside and noticed you were passed out drunk! The Grey Goose revealed it all I kissed my dog goodnight, gave him a treat and BOUNCED With YOUR keys and YOUR car I’m so fed up I’m just SO fed up The Bible says honor thy mother and father it doesn’t mention son and daughter BOLOGNA if you ask me NO child begged to be a part of this planet! What does honor mean anyway? Webster says merited respect… okay so maybe it’s not bologna! I canNOT stop replaying my past You are still here! You are from the past! I have let go but when you dig it up and throw it in my face I pick it back up! I try to be strong I really do and EVERYONE notices I’ve made great improvements You’re one of the people who’s praised me! I’ve been having these occasional fluttering sensations in my heart for the past few years that I’ve mentioned to you recently I still haven’t gone to the doctor Neither of us will forget that time I was crying on the phone to Linnel about the two guys raping my semiconscious body and you busted in my room and said, “I hope your p____ fall’s off” I can’t forget that time I confided in you about an unusual discharge and you said, “I’m just gonna let you suffer…” Thanks for eventually taking me to go get tested but why did you have to say that? I felt bad enough Very true, Mom, I don’t have any friends… I’m not even sure if I’m in excellent health and that I’ll make it many more years Still, while I’m here I just want to be able to help my people… somehow