Determination

My hands shake I am drenched in sweat I can feel my eyes rolling back I slip into unconsciousness I awake Engulfed in excruciating pain My body screams Screams, for a new dose My cheeks glisten with tears The reality of what my life has become, is a death sentence I have to change I want to change The rehabilitation centre is hell on earth But I will fight, until I have nothing left This is not who I am And not who I want to be Months and months of fear My quality of life is gone Devoured By the demons inside me Each day is pure torture My physical suffering is immense But my regrets, are killing me Slowly I have replaced myself With a monster Destroyed who I really am But giving up, is not an option I will fight Until I am the victor of this war My desire to change burns inside me Flames of determination in my eyes I suffer immensely for my recovery I rise every time I fall Becoming stronger than before Fighting with courage in my heart I begin to see light in my dark tunnel I am now in control Drugs becoming a ghostly shadow of my past Fading but, never completely disappearing As I walk away free of these monsters I know my weakness to addiction still lurks Deep inside me But my new found strength and determination will forever overpower it I am branded with scars A constant reminder of who I was But the encouragement To never return