Defend Me Father

How could you not defend my grace? You my brother and father in haste Protection you should have given to me Instead of a false pretension of the incapability to see Loyalty you possess amidst your modest private group How much pain do I endure, how low must I stoop? Allowing your only daughter and sister to be mauled Your loyalty is selective; why am I so stupidly appalled? It’s never been a surprise to me that I’m the lesser one Even all my achievements; I’m still the one who’s shunned Where’s the unconditional love all of you have preached about? Were they just pacifying remarks; pretending not to shut me out? I’m ashamed and infuriated that neither one of you Would defend my honor and sensibility; simply you withdrew Family is supposed to protect each other until the bitter end Had I been wearing the shoe that fit, your reputation I would defend But I wasn’t shown that privilege, was I my faithful kin? I was shown a simple remiss of another troubled sin Well time has come to show me that were clearly drifting apart A father who refused to shield his daughter; a person simply forgot I’ve made my peace and understand that I’m no longer your little girl But in my heart you’re still my daddy and my emotions are in a whirl My aching heart is in disarray for I know what the future brings The disappointed invisible one, no longer feeling your shameless stings © Stacy Lynn Stiles