Deeper Into Addiction: Perfect Memories, Hollow Reality

Cold air surrounds me My body shivers as it did long ago I fight against the rush of memories But give into my addiction I sit where we both sat that Halloween night Nervously laughing, hands trembling Neither of us knowing Exactly what to do The windows fogged up As our breathing became ragged Two little lovers Each into the other As I finish my high My memory bursts out of my eyes Tears cascading down my face Picking out old memories to quell the pain of life Addicted to what used to be Current reality is death to me Stay away from me, object of my past Don't give me memories when I'm almost done at last Compound toxins build up in me Memories of you clash with drinks flowing free The dizziness of drunkenness kills off the old And inserts me into a world of gold Until I wake again and remember it all The past was so perfect... Now it's so hollow Where does my salvation lie?