Deep Reflection

it's funny how you can go from being loved to so alone in a world so dark and cold. In a split second. I try and tell you that it's far to difficult but you don't seem to care, you don't listen please believe me when I say this, I need guidance, man I need help, my trust issues have taken the best of me and now it's ruining all they say you can overcome those problems but now its all come down to leaving myself or not. how do I deal with that thought. One minute i'm here, i'm calm, the next minute I ain't I'm going insane, slowly it's hard to take and it's the only chance I got, is to deal with it, move on overcome these problems, but man it's too late will it ever be back to normal before all this hurt my heart dealt before I knew how to fall before no one caught me how does it end how will it continue? How the hell do I find out when I'm losing myself losing all faith losing what I've become How do I deal with failing when I have never learned to win? Out of this state, I’m only losing you losing what I want to keep losing you and it makes me weep in and out of love when all I want is to stay within. I’m grasping out for help and it’s not working, pushing myself out my own door I created and now I can't do nothing, it's devastating. How do I win without losing or overcome the losing streak with confidence I continually lose the most important part of me, You.