Deceit

Whispering in the dark, Your hand around my waist I hear you say “you love me” All I hear is the deceit in your breath. You been creeping, thinking I didn’t know. Laying here with my eyes wide open. Pretending to sleep, you don’t even notice. But how can you when your being is laced with lies. I feel the young girl's hands on yours. Her sweet purrs rock your body and transcends into mine. I am a woman and I know. It’s dark out, its dark inside, Will you ever admit your infidelity? Or will it get worse by morning light. The girl be calling everyday when you in the shower, She be texting while you eat my breakfast. You turn,kiss me goodbye, your smile reminds me of the devil. As I watch your silhouette dance towards the woman you creep with. Do you even notice the rage and the thunder? Or you just cast a blind eye and carry on. Your band feels heavy on my hand. It’s a diamond I adored once, But now all I see is sand, why does it even sparkle. When the sparkle I had is now an icy stare of hate. You call during the day, tell me you miss me. I wonder how you can say that, Do you even miss me or you just need a beacon. A woman who will catch you when you fall? I hear her voice in yours, I hear the echoes that still my soul. I can’t even blame her, I am not even mad at her. I can’t help but wonder, if she even knows. If she does, she is set for a life of mishaps. No bad deed ever go unpunished. If she doesn’t, she is set for a life misery. I can’t even be mad at him. This emotion that I have has surpassed. I feel nothing but rage multiplied. I gave him my all, he gave me His all. It’s all up in flames, it’s all up in ashes. You obviously can’t be seeing with your soul. For your eyes are now a mirror of misconception. You will not even notice my dry tears, Or the wave of fire in my bones. Will it surprise you if you wake up alone one night? I doubt it would, that’s why my fear has melted. How can I leave in the midst of a situation? A situation I can easily fix, maybe you would notice then. Will I use a piece of steel, to silence you immediately? For silence is what your love has been for two years. Or will I just choke you, leave your breathless. For all those nights you breathed out perfume and lust. Will I even call it even or will I walk and forget you ever existed. © Herzel Poshiwa