Damage Goodes
You see me damage
And You know it's internal
Yet you ride me like I'm entertainment
You push my buttons
You poke at my scares
Knowing my scares are deeply bonded
We fight more then we sleep
Is There any room for peace?
Even if there is for a second let us pretend
Infront of our company that we're perfect
With this air so thick it's suffocating me
and with my anxiety I panic... I over think
reaching for a Knife
To cut threw this air I can't breathe
You carry so much Animosity towards me
consistently throw low blows towards me
And I'm so bitter from the history of abuse
You can't speak a kind gesture towards me without me exploding
You hate me and I hate you...we're screaming
In it's so exhausting physically and mentally
looking at you vs. Me court cases
What I don't understand at the end of each day
We lay in the same bed
We been down this path for years
I don't want 20 years to pass and we're still here
The same old lauryn hill exfactor song playing on repeat
I try to get over the abuse, I tried talking about it, writing it out
even bottled it, tried to swallow it
The outcome of trying to hide it, just made me more bitter
Tried thinking positive but everytime you speak
It just makes me quiver
And when you touch me a certain way
my heart skips a beat
The flashbacks of abuse is in red
and is flashing repeatedly through my head
My mom told me to pray
But praying can only drive me so far
until my mind starts switching lanes
I have seen the stop signs but kept straight
knowing I pushed you to far
waiting for you to explode
Im already used to you being this way
But you keep throwing me Faith?
I guess you did changed but it's to late
you beat the hope out of me literally
I'm just damage goodes
Copyright © Jaquesha Webb | Year Posted 2016
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