Dad

Hey dad, I'm 17 now, all grown up. I've always wondered what it was like To say "hey dad". But I never really had the chance. i never really got to see you... they say you were around when I was a baby. Where'd you go? You left quicker then a flash of light. I have absolutely no idea what kind of women my mama raised me. I'm not like her, but maybe I'm like you in some sort of way. I try to ask my mama where you went.. but every time I asked, her smile would fade away. As a child I thought you ran away from us, but i always stayed up thinking you'd come back home and stay. I grew older and found the reason why you were always gone. Mama said you killed yourself 7 days after I was born. mom would tell me she felt so hurt and so alone yet torn for so many years that she mourned, She blames herself still and I tell her it isn't her fault you are gone dad, I understand you had problems, but I don't understand why you had to take that road instead. If you were here still Id make you so proud of how much accomplishments I've made dad. Graduating early and have a scholar ship to attend. Moms proud of me and I know in heaven you are too. I love you dad,.