Choked

I wish to not leave the house I wish to not be with family I wish only to be as small as a mouse I wish to crawl under rocks and bridges the fire under my face will not douse I stare at your SS glare the road among us both so straight your test was deemed oh so fair wheels akimbo, signals awry i want to pull out my hair! a black anchor chains me in bed only that which is sonic grants me a smile the madness only seeks the dread the touch of my hand brings bliss? happiness lies with the dead life on the outside is brash and loud life on the inside is grey walking on the outside in a black cloud I will not surrender until I do white wings and a dark shroud.