Caged

what have I done? what can I do? my accomplishments are very few and while this fact still makes me blue I still would never trade my shoes sometimes I sit and cry I don't really know why I can't stop so I don't try those times I would get high but I've given up my crutch booze, weed and pills and such I depended on them way too much now I just withdrawal from touch the touch of a loved one like a warm ray from the sun I hide pain with lifts and runs still my sadness weighs a ton but I carry this weight without any debate and hide my depressed state for only I can change my fate and only I can try and change how I've become deranged when this life seems so estranged I feel even more encaged