Broken Eyes

Broken Eyes Sun shining through My window Begging me to greet the new day I just don’t want to As sadness envelopes me All I want is to hide Forget to breathe Tears fill my eyes Not long ago I would have fought them Now I just wish they would fall But they don’t and I know it is Because I have Broken Eyes I look for a distraction Anything to not feel this pain I turn on the radio And I hear Tiffany singing “Hear In My Heart” And it takes me back in time In my mind I can hear Hayley singing along Like she did every time That song played Two voices blending so beautifully You would think that would Make me smile Such a fond memory Instead my heart begins to break With the reminder that Hayley is gone I find myself missing My best friend, sister & twin I don’t want to go on As tears well up again I really wish they would fall Yet I know they won’t Not from these my Broken Eyes Thirteen years and counting Feels like just yesterday The pain gets worse each and everyday With that pain Comes more heartbreak Tears that well up but never fall Leaving me to wonder Will I ever be able to heal my Broken Eyes I feel so defeated Life keeps going on Yet I don’t want it to A voice in my head says it doesn’t have to More voices join in As they begin to chant “Do it” Over and Over again It takes all my strength To muster the will To keep going on I just know though I have to I never want to cause the pain I feel To anyone else So I say a little prayer And ask for help from above Then I ask him While he is at it if he could please Fix my Broken Eyes Then maybe I could cry Wash away some of the pain Help me find the strength to Keep moving on Oh what a relief it would be If only I didn’t have these Broken Eyes By: Jean Bonella