Blessing and Curse

its a blessing and a curse my prison and my search my gift and much worse from first to nurturing my current rebirth circling above earth blood for their thirst my advantage, limit depreciation by the minute similar and not unlike me improving this history legacy and misery family not infinity chips fall as they may october 2nd everyday build or wreck my choices sway make the most cause im here to stay till my ghost turns to stray earn this way or burn before I pray uncertainty needs to be braved my dwelling my cave shelter and cage part of the play combined with cards and my age dealt and I deal comparisons pale to the feel its all in my head yet ever so real