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I've been given a clean slate, wiped clear They told me that this was it, no more tears I was given this blank paper to write my story To brainstorm a future and then tell my glory It'S purpose I suppose is to create an outline To become one with fate and life's design I could make a life filled with luxury and pride or one that's based on peace, I can't decide But of course one with loyal and loving friends Where there is never a reason to pretend I could make a message of hope and desire No one would be sad, no one would tire I would base it in a small town, quiet but fun The parties won't shut down until we see sun what a wonderful story it would become people would read it and they would come. Unfortunately, the whole scenario is fake That's the kind of life that we can't make They want me to believe that this is my shot To build whatever I want, give it all I've got But that's not the case, I know it's all a lie They are sugar coating reality so I don't cry They didn't "give" me a new and clean slate they just took my old one , but left the hate this paper is blank not because I get to choose its because I have nothing left to lose I barely made it when my world suddenly died It was ripped out of my hands, my faith denied I am still learning still from the old life that I led I know that its memories will never be dead I know I am the one who caused the end I am the one who lost every single friend The fresh start was my creation by mistake Or shall we call it destruction so I could make I alone am the controller of what is to be I am the person who molds today, just me Tomorrow will be a reflection of choices today So its time to start building a new pathway I am not going to tell you a perfect lie And I refuse to paint just a beautiful sky my story shall be much more than a tall tale It will show strength and also how I fail it will tell of suffering, happiness and greed it'll have people who are broken and in need I want my journey to have meaning and truth If we had no challenges, we would have no proof