Baring My Soul
I was the last of ten children in my family
Nine lovely girls and li'l ole me
Spoiled you may rightly assume
WRONG!
I was the sweetest well mannered offspring
That a parent could ever wish for
Even to the point of being withdrawn
All through my teenage years
I had an inferiority complex
Never thought the opposite sex
Would ever be interested in me
Early on in my career as a graphic designer
Things began to change dramatically
My success gave a new found confidence
And suddenly I saw myself in a different light
Which allowed me to open up my heart
And function as a normal, well-adjusted human
With all the ups and downs, the highs and lows
With all the hopes and dreams everyone possesses
Married Linda, when I was twenty-two
Linda was eighteen and wanted despareatly
To get out from under the control
Of an extremely dominating and controlling mother
Did she love me?
Looking back, I would say no
I was her ticket to freedom
Not a good way to start our married life together
Oh our marriage was a happy one at first
But knowing that she really didn't love me
I was always trying to MAKE HER LOVE ME
But I never felt like I succeeded
We had three kids of our own
And we adopted two others
Those adopted kids were my way of trying to tighten the bond
To give her everything she asked for
But I never ever felt that I succeeded
She passed away at fifty-nine from breast cancer
At the same time, her younger sister Cathie
Was going through a nasty divorce
We supported each through those difficult times
And it was only natural, we fell in love and married two years later
Cathie really does love me and for the very first time
I am happy and content with my life
Which is all I ever wanted...
Now you know my story!
© Jack Ellison 2014
Copyright © Jack Ellison | Year Posted 2014
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