Bad Medicine

By Laura July 25th, 2016 I take another drink or two Forget the things I never knew To know the burning, searing pain That things will never be the same Insane they say, with charts and graphs It's maddening; they never laugh They'll never know what this is like To sometimes feel, less of a dyke I find peace in the dark today It let's me live; just for a day The life I never got to see It's like I wasn't meant to be They pray for me to go away For me to find another way But can't they see just who I am? I never really was a man I may have fit where they could see I had the best abilities But when I laid in bed at night I cried because it wasn't right Abused myself for years and years Thoughts that preyed upon my fears With echoes in my bed tonight Awake until the morning light