Are We There Yet, I Really Have To Pee

This is something other than unsure laced with heavy heart. I'd love to change my mind, is this where you take charge? When our play begins, the starring role I'm begging you to take. Open your eyes, I won't sit around and wait. Would you instantly be swooned if I could be your tin foil dream? Would you cook me in a spoon, shoot me right through your blood stream? A rush that lasts longer than fifteen seconds, a force that beckons for all of your attention. I want to illuminate the dark corners, where you hide the secrets that border, The hurt that you and I refuse to admit, the **** that resides far beneath the surface, Those things that just never quite seem fit and yet we both allow them to exist. Between a cut and a hole, is there really a difference at all? Knowing what I know, why do I keep interest in something I cannot control? She's got what you need and she's got you by the balls, I have nothing that can compare to her thralls. But this is just an embellishment of events as seen in my head. This is my heart written on paper that cannot be read. Maybe if I do it like this, it will make more sense. I hope you'll let me find solace in you because I know I can do better but I don't want to believe it is true. This where I lose rhythm and ask you to lie and tell me you'll do anything, but darling don't take the time to try.