Amidst Heavy Rains

Amidst the heavy rains,standing here I'm, Holding my hands together ,hoping to be fine. Walking through the streets ,repenting upon the past, thinking what to do next,and when did I smile last. Nothing seems to strike,nothing going my way, however hard i try,no use of what I say. To whom shall I show, the scars of my life, the pain of which ,increases my strife. I have reached a stage ,at which I can't turn back, to fulfill my wishes which my life lack. Now I wish sometimes,I still had been a boy, to be loved by everyone,filled every moment with joy. But time and again,reality comes back to me, and amidst heavy rains I'm again on a crying spree.