Am I Asking For Much

I wish I could experience, Love, that is so intense. To exhaust that love At love’s expense To be left unwanting, Fulfilled and content Knowing that love has been well spent Without fear that she will leave, With the sense that I’ll die. As she takes my children, Just to hurt me so I cry. I wish I could laugh To feel the joy overflow To be delighted and happy These feelings I do not know Instead of this sadness And loneliness at my door And hearing the repetitive words “I don’t love you anymore” This is not about sex Its about fulfilling my every emotion Of everything before and after The kind of love and devotion Like have the chance To feel real romance While I hold you and kiss you In a romantic slow dance Love and happiness like this I don’t know, or see I yearn for a special lover That can show real love to me