Addicted More Than I Think

I bet you won't call You know its true You're addicted to your buddies I'm addicted to you I stay up waiting for your call Insomnia; sleepless You will never realize You are my biggest weakness You said you would call two hours ago It's cold and I'm still waiting It will never be you, Only the friends I'll be hating Happy Anniversary baby! What? out with the guys again? Call me when your guys night out is over, Maybe we can talk then I don't like this side of you Drinking, partying, buddies trying to fix you up with others, whatever It hurts so damn bad But I will leave you never I wake up and see I have a voice mail It's from you; I'm so happy! "I lost track of time, your too controlling." I break down crying Realizing I'm no better than you Grabbing the bottle, I say I'll only have a shot or two Time has passed I'm drunk as hell The saddest thing is I love you still Trying too drink away the pain hours flash by day turns too night tears falling down my face like rain Why is loving you such a fight?? ----------- Please do not judge me by this poem. I wrote it when I was 19 and having a very hard time in my life. Drinking was what I turned too. Things have since turned around a little. I no longer drink so that's a plus